The Last Day

Haven't posted since January... yikes!
Well, I am happy to say that I have passed all my classes! YAY!
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I have finally brought my grade up! I am now passing all of them! YAY!!!
Finals are all over, and so is school!
Goodbye homework! And good riddance!
Now I have a huge dilema on my hands..... I'm thinking about dropping IB and just going to regular school... I feel like I am letting everyone down though.... Especially my family. They expect me to be great and have an extremely successful life - but it seems like the only way they see me achieving that is to finish the IB program! How stupid! And then they think that I don't worry enough about this stuff. They don't even know that this is ripping me apart inside! I think about it almost every second of the day! I'm worried about my future too! Especially with the economy the way it is...
Now, I want a job - I want to make money! My dad says that I should do an internship with one of the local theaters or interior design shops in town. He doesn't understand. At this point, I am in high school. I am a teenager! All I care about is getting my own money so I can spend it on the things I want, where I want, when I want no matter what it is! If I had my own money I could spend it all on chocolate bars and sponges for pete's sake! Most parents want their kids to get a job so that they don't have to pay for everything all the time. I see where my dad is coming from and all - doing something you love - but I can't do that and make money. Especially not at my age with this economy!
UGH!!!!! IT JUST MAKES ME SOOOOOOOO F-ING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they always come into my bedroom and talk to me "ohhh we just want to help" "ohhhhh we don't want to push you away" well your not helping and if you don't want to push me away then STAY THE F OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! They can't keep their noses out of ANYTHING!!!! I just get SOOOOOOO F-ING frustrated sometimes, you know?! I just can't wait until I am out of high school, then I can move out and be done with them. I can just do my own thing with out them constantly pestering me about EVERY LITTLE F-ING THING! GOSH!!!!!!!! Sometimes I just really really really want to scream until my lungs bleed!
The thing I hate the most about my parents is how they always say we are going to go places, but do you think we ever do? Unless somebody dies we just stay put in this city and NEVER EVER GO ANYWHERE EVER!!!!!!!!!!! The worst thing happened the other day. I was given the opportunity to go to France with my French class for a week in the Summer of 2010. Well my mom said it was either France or a graduation trip. A graduation trip has always been my dream, but I never even knew that they had one in mind for me. My mom said it was supposed to be a surprise. I LOVE SURPRISES! and she just spoiled the best one. What's even worse is that I gave up France and now we probably won't go anywhere except my house for a graduation party with my family. Just GREAT! THANK YOU MOTHER!!!!
They don't even get it, do they?! I know this is my teenage brain talking, but by golly it's what's been on my mind for a while and I just needed to express it!
And on that note, I shall leave you.

The Lunch Box

I would just like to preface my post with, "Forgetting your lunch is NOT a very good thing to do after not having eaten and breakfast and with out a good chance of a large dinner >> I felt sooooo sick today! I know my parents hate it when I eat all the corn ships but it's like the only crunchy, salty, and not healthy food we have in our entire house! Ugh!
I am really trying to get back into the swing of things exercise and drawing wise, but there is always sooooo much homework! Speaking of homework... I skipped doing my math homework in order to finish editing my friends science video. It took me 8 hours -.- I was so tired that I just fell asleep in my parent's room.

OK! so now it is Saturday... I have English and Math homework that I should be doing but I just can't!! I heard that my editing went over well in 5th period and everybody liked it so, YAY! now I need to work on my own >> that's another thing I should be doing, making a script..... UGH! I have no motivation for this at all!!! It sucks....

Hitting the Road Running

Let's recap:

Wow! A LOT has happened...
A. Haven't uploaded any art
B. My Great G-ma died
C. My mom's friend had her baby
D. We got invited to a wedding
E. Fianls week is going great
F. My brain hurts

ok... so maybe it's not that much, but yeah...
A: I know I haven't uploaded any artz, I just haven't drawn anything lately! maybe if I opened a free art thread in gaia? Then I'd be forced to do somethings besides mope around the internet looking for online friends... hmm...

B: Yeah, my Great Grandma Avis just passed away. Some weird stuff happened to her. She went to the hospital because she broke her hip, then they found water in her lungs, and somethings else weird! Crazy stuff... So this weekend we are going down to Arcata for the service, I feel bad for not feeling worse about this. Although... I only saw her twice in my life....

C:Yes! my mom's teacher aid/friend gave birth to a cute baby boy on the first day of school back from break, she was in labor for almost 12 hours! yikes!

D: It was her (see C) wedding we got invited too, exciting!

E: I LOVE FINALS!!!! They have all been super easy, we get out early, and I only have one final tomorrow bcuz I already took my PE final! YAY!!!!!

F: I think I have been looking at the screen too long, I'm hungry and thirsty too, my mom will be home soon, I still have to pack, ext. ext. ext. my brain feels aweful... oohhh! I hope there is a new episode of pushing daisy's!

Well... my new year's resolutions include the following: draw more, upload more, get a better understanding of CSS, finish my dream avi quest on gaia, actually try in class, get atleast a 90 on my end-of-the-year-worth-half-your-grade research project in English, and some how get 3k to go to France with my French class in the summer of 2010.

so yeah....

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Let It Rock
* Reading: CSS coding manuals
* Watching: Pushing Daisy's
* Playing: Guild Wars
* Eating: Grilled Cheese
* Drinking: Water


ok... I just got back from my G-ma's memorial service. It is ssoooo nice to breath in that desert air! lol.
We went to the beach and my clothes got soaked! then they got sanded >< lol
I finally updated my playlist! lol - I am also searching for new bands! Please, please, PLEASE e-mail/comment me some! - I listen to everything (Yes, that includes grunge, metal, country, and hip-hop aswell as other not so popular genres)
another new years resolution of mine is to post in my blog more >>

And now I ask you to laugh at the following joke with me:
Tim Shandy stepped into the Warm Spoon, a popular Galway tavern.
To Mike Callahan, the barkeep, Shandy said "Mike, I'll be havin'
three whiskeys."
Callahan set up three glasses and began to pour. "Now, Timothy,
it's not the usual thing for you to ask for three whiskeys. It's
celebratin', you are.
"Ahh, ye know me too well, Micheal, ye do. Truth, and I'm celebrating
me first blow job."
Callahan smiled benevolently and set a fourth glass on the bar.
"Now, that's special," he said. "For an old customer like y'rself,
here's a fourth on the house, so I may be sharin' your celebration
with you."
Shandy shook his head, and replied "'Tis verra kind of ye, Micheal,
but I'm thinkin' if three won't get rid of the taste, four won't
either."

ahhhhh yes.... not the best, I know.... and now, a quote that I fully agree with!
P.S. Tis my favorite:
“Those who desire to give up freedom in order to gain security will not have, nor do they deserve, either one.”

I used it in an argument I had in English about the Patriot Act (not sure how we drifted there from Animal Farm) and I hope I got the message through to that guy because the Patriot Act is redundant and naming it as such is using positive connotations which is a form of propaganda used daily under Hitler as well as Stalin. That alone should set off some red flags...

well.... in other news, I got a new firefox theme, yay! lol. It will take some getting used to >> It is completely different, much less busy.