The Last Day

Haven't posted since January... yikes!
Well, I am happy to say that I have passed all my classes! YAY!
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I have finally brought my grade up! I am now passing all of them! YAY!!!
Finals are all over, and so is school!
Goodbye homework! And good riddance!
Now I have a huge dilema on my hands..... I'm thinking about dropping IB and just going to regular school... I feel like I am letting everyone down though.... Especially my family. They expect me to be great and have an extremely successful life - but it seems like the only way they see me achieving that is to finish the IB program! How stupid! And then they think that I don't worry enough about this stuff. They don't even know that this is ripping me apart inside! I think about it almost every second of the day! I'm worried about my future too! Especially with the economy the way it is...
Now, I want a job - I want to make money! My dad says that I should do an internship with one of the local theaters or interior design shops in town. He doesn't understand. At this point, I am in high school. I am a teenager! All I care about is getting my own money so I can spend it on the things I want, where I want, when I want no matter what it is! If I had my own money I could spend it all on chocolate bars and sponges for pete's sake! Most parents want their kids to get a job so that they don't have to pay for everything all the time. I see where my dad is coming from and all - doing something you love - but I can't do that and make money. Especially not at my age with this economy!
UGH!!!!! IT JUST MAKES ME SOOOOOOOO F-ING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they always come into my bedroom and talk to me "ohhh we just want to help" "ohhhhh we don't want to push you away" well your not helping and if you don't want to push me away then STAY THE F OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! They can't keep their noses out of ANYTHING!!!! I just get SOOOOOOO F-ING frustrated sometimes, you know?! I just can't wait until I am out of high school, then I can move out and be done with them. I can just do my own thing with out them constantly pestering me about EVERY LITTLE F-ING THING! GOSH!!!!!!!! Sometimes I just really really really want to scream until my lungs bleed!
The thing I hate the most about my parents is how they always say we are going to go places, but do you think we ever do? Unless somebody dies we just stay put in this city and NEVER EVER GO ANYWHERE EVER!!!!!!!!!!! The worst thing happened the other day. I was given the opportunity to go to France with my French class for a week in the Summer of 2010. Well my mom said it was either France or a graduation trip. A graduation trip has always been my dream, but I never even knew that they had one in mind for me. My mom said it was supposed to be a surprise. I LOVE SURPRISES! and she just spoiled the best one. What's even worse is that I gave up France and now we probably won't go anywhere except my house for a graduation party with my family. Just GREAT! THANK YOU MOTHER!!!!
They don't even get it, do they?! I know this is my teenage brain talking, but by golly it's what's been on my mind for a while and I just needed to express it!
And on that note, I shall leave you.