The Last Day

Haven't posted since January... yikes!
Well, I am happy to say that I have passed all my classes! YAY!
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I have finally brought my grade up! I am now passing all of them! YAY!!!
Finals are all over, and so is school!
Goodbye homework! And good riddance!
Now I have a huge dilema on my hands..... I'm thinking about dropping IB and just going to regular school... I feel like I am letting everyone down though.... Especially my family. They expect me to be great and have an extremely successful life - but it seems like the only way they see me achieving that is to finish the IB program! How stupid! And then they think that I don't worry enough about this stuff. They don't even know that this is ripping me apart inside! I think about it almost every second of the day! I'm worried about my future too! Especially with the economy the way it is...
Now, I want a job - I want to make money! My dad says that I should do an internship with one of the local theaters or interior design shops in town. He doesn't understand. At this point, I am in high school. I am a teenager! All I care about is getting my own money so I can spend it on the things I want, where I want, when I want no matter what it is! If I had my own money I could spend it all on chocolate bars and sponges for pete's sake! Most parents want their kids to get a job so that they don't have to pay for everything all the time. I see where my dad is coming from and all - doing something you love - but I can't do that and make money. Especially not at my age with this economy!
UGH!!!!! IT JUST MAKES ME SOOOOOOOO F-ING MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they always come into my bedroom and talk to me "ohhh we just want to help" "ohhhhh we don't want to push you away" well your not helping and if you don't want to push me away then STAY THE F OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! They can't keep their noses out of ANYTHING!!!! I just get SOOOOOOO F-ING frustrated sometimes, you know?! I just can't wait until I am out of high school, then I can move out and be done with them. I can just do my own thing with out them constantly pestering me about EVERY LITTLE F-ING THING! GOSH!!!!!!!! Sometimes I just really really really want to scream until my lungs bleed!
The thing I hate the most about my parents is how they always say we are going to go places, but do you think we ever do? Unless somebody dies we just stay put in this city and NEVER EVER GO ANYWHERE EVER!!!!!!!!!!! The worst thing happened the other day. I was given the opportunity to go to France with my French class for a week in the Summer of 2010. Well my mom said it was either France or a graduation trip. A graduation trip has always been my dream, but I never even knew that they had one in mind for me. My mom said it was supposed to be a surprise. I LOVE SURPRISES! and she just spoiled the best one. What's even worse is that I gave up France and now we probably won't go anywhere except my house for a graduation party with my family. Just GREAT! THANK YOU MOTHER!!!!
They don't even get it, do they?! I know this is my teenage brain talking, but by golly it's what's been on my mind for a while and I just needed to express it!
And on that note, I shall leave you.

The Lunch Box

I would just like to preface my post with, "Forgetting your lunch is NOT a very good thing to do after not having eaten and breakfast and with out a good chance of a large dinner >> I felt sooooo sick today! I know my parents hate it when I eat all the corn ships but it's like the only crunchy, salty, and not healthy food we have in our entire house! Ugh!
I am really trying to get back into the swing of things exercise and drawing wise, but there is always sooooo much homework! Speaking of homework... I skipped doing my math homework in order to finish editing my friends science video. It took me 8 hours -.- I was so tired that I just fell asleep in my parent's room.

OK! so now it is Saturday... I have English and Math homework that I should be doing but I just can't!! I heard that my editing went over well in 5th period and everybody liked it so, YAY! now I need to work on my own >> that's another thing I should be doing, making a script..... UGH! I have no motivation for this at all!!! It sucks....

Hitting the Road Running

Let's recap:

Wow! A LOT has happened...
A. Haven't uploaded any art
B. My Great G-ma died
C. My mom's friend had her baby
D. We got invited to a wedding
E. Fianls week is going great
F. My brain hurts

ok... so maybe it's not that much, but yeah...
A: I know I haven't uploaded any artz, I just haven't drawn anything lately! maybe if I opened a free art thread in gaia? Then I'd be forced to do somethings besides mope around the internet looking for online friends... hmm...

B: Yeah, my Great Grandma Avis just passed away. Some weird stuff happened to her. She went to the hospital because she broke her hip, then they found water in her lungs, and somethings else weird! Crazy stuff... So this weekend we are going down to Arcata for the service, I feel bad for not feeling worse about this. Although... I only saw her twice in my life....

C:Yes! my mom's teacher aid/friend gave birth to a cute baby boy on the first day of school back from break, she was in labor for almost 12 hours! yikes!

D: It was her (see C) wedding we got invited too, exciting!

E: I LOVE FINALS!!!! They have all been super easy, we get out early, and I only have one final tomorrow bcuz I already took my PE final! YAY!!!!!

F: I think I have been looking at the screen too long, I'm hungry and thirsty too, my mom will be home soon, I still have to pack, ext. ext. ext. my brain feels aweful... oohhh! I hope there is a new episode of pushing daisy's!

Well... my new year's resolutions include the following: draw more, upload more, get a better understanding of CSS, finish my dream avi quest on gaia, actually try in class, get atleast a 90 on my end-of-the-year-worth-half-your-grade research project in English, and some how get 3k to go to France with my French class in the summer of 2010.

so yeah....

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Let It Rock
* Reading: CSS coding manuals
* Watching: Pushing Daisy's
* Playing: Guild Wars
* Eating: Grilled Cheese
* Drinking: Water


ok... I just got back from my G-ma's memorial service. It is ssoooo nice to breath in that desert air! lol.
We went to the beach and my clothes got soaked! then they got sanded >< lol
I finally updated my playlist! lol - I am also searching for new bands! Please, please, PLEASE e-mail/comment me some! - I listen to everything (Yes, that includes grunge, metal, country, and hip-hop aswell as other not so popular genres)
another new years resolution of mine is to post in my blog more >>

And now I ask you to laugh at the following joke with me:
Tim Shandy stepped into the Warm Spoon, a popular Galway tavern.
To Mike Callahan, the barkeep, Shandy said "Mike, I'll be havin'
three whiskeys."
Callahan set up three glasses and began to pour. "Now, Timothy,
it's not the usual thing for you to ask for three whiskeys. It's
celebratin', you are.
"Ahh, ye know me too well, Micheal, ye do. Truth, and I'm celebrating
me first blow job."
Callahan smiled benevolently and set a fourth glass on the bar.
"Now, that's special," he said. "For an old customer like y'rself,
here's a fourth on the house, so I may be sharin' your celebration
with you."
Shandy shook his head, and replied "'Tis verra kind of ye, Micheal,
but I'm thinkin' if three won't get rid of the taste, four won't
either."

ahhhhh yes.... not the best, I know.... and now, a quote that I fully agree with!
P.S. Tis my favorite:
“Those who desire to give up freedom in order to gain security will not have, nor do they deserve, either one.”

I used it in an argument I had in English about the Patriot Act (not sure how we drifted there from Animal Farm) and I hope I got the message through to that guy because the Patriot Act is redundant and naming it as such is using positive connotations which is a form of propaganda used daily under Hitler as well as Stalin. That alone should set off some red flags...

well.... in other news, I got a new firefox theme, yay! lol. It will take some getting used to >> It is completely different, much less busy.

Wall to Wall

I am wall to wall in homework!!! in in love with that song!!! can't stop listening to it!
I have a load of HW to do but I just... I can't get off the computer!!!! ><
I was dragged along to see twilight >> one movie I'm glad my over observations came in handy! It was pretty cheesy... HA HA!!! I totally think that HP will gain more revenue than Twilight... HP is practically a classic!
I am currently revamping my guild in gaia, this time I'm going to go over the top! This newer, more detail oriented guild will be soooooo much better!!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One good thing about being dragged off to the theatre is that I got to see the newest trailer for HP6!!! Talk about amazing! I absolutely CANNOT wait another second! but I must...... Infact, I must wait another 8 months >> how tiring!!! Atleast it gives me some more time to get my costume together.... I am soooooo excited!!!!

Crazy Frog

THE CRAZY FROG IS JUMPING!!!!
In this post I would love to express my undying love for the Crazy Frog. No really....
ok ok jk jk..... But seriously, the Crazy frog music is DA BOMB!
Distant voice: "Bomb? BOMB!!? DUCK AND COVER!!!"
Me: "Not that kind of bomb stupido...."
mmmkay.... nothing interesting has happened really.... I wrote a poem! maybe I'll post it here someday... for now I don't want to lay all my cards out on the table for people I go to school with to possibly see ^^ he he he
speaking of cards, what are the all time great card games in life? I think:
♥ Go-Fish
♥ War
♥ 21
♥ Black Jack
♥ BS (also known as cheat)
♥ Slide
the BEST card games ever! MUAHAHAAAA!
Now..... to all those reading this, you should all go to take180.com RIGHT NOW!!! forget about the rest of this post and just go there right now.....
no seriously...
ARE YOU STILL READING THIS!?!? I SAID GO!


MMMKAY THEN!
well... that about it... LA DEE DA!

My My

It has been a while now, hasn't it? ah well.... Life is pretty dull, repeating itself like a truly broken record. I'm thinking about getting into poetry... Who knows... maybe I will be good at it? Lately I've been feeling as if I am walking through a murky haze, a blinding fog that will never lift.... That, and I have a huge hole in the butt of my PJ pants *cry* ah well.... We got our first report cards yesterday, I have three A's and three B's! woooo... yeah....
In french we have to make a cafe diolog, my group is pretty smart, but not too creative (we all admitted to this). Our idea rocks, and I get to die, so yay!!!!!! well... yeah... whenever I actually finish a poem I might post it here... *sigh* life is pretty boring as of late....

WOW

I know I haven't posted at all and we are like... two months into high school already! lol so I will just post my Deviant Art Journal Posts here:

Well! So this is my first journal entry! how exciting!
my life is pretty good.... I'm in IB so I hardly get any time for fun but it's all good! most of my art comes out of B1 (my math class)and is usually on lined paper.... today I have hardly any homework! WOO! I was soo happy! plus I had no soccer practice so I actually got home by 3PM! FYI I play on the high school soccer team and we practice every weekday from 3:30 to 5:30.... I LOVE IT!!! lol >< well yeah...
* Mood: Daily Needs
* Listening to: Ma Philosophie
* Reading: My Words
* Watching: The Computer Screen
* Playing: Nothing
* Eating: Nachoes
* Drinking: Water

Well... everybody loves a good Saturday right? Yeah... right... Well... I am procrastinating right now... I'm supposed to be writing an 800 word essay and reviewing a chapter in biology >> at least that's all! last weekend was a lot worse.... BUT! I also have a soccer game today! WOOHOO!! I just hope we win this time! YAY! well... that's all for now...

* Mood: Rant
* Listening to: Beauty from Pain
* Reading: Kera's Gaia Profile....
* Watching: E.T.
* Playing: Nothing
* Eating: Nada
* Drinking: Water

Well... I am at Kera's slumber/birthday party... her friends are crazy, and I am tired! lol... yeah...... well... I still have 600 more words to go on that essay! and kera has three suckers in her mouth.... make that four.... now they have turned out all of the lights and I an barley see the keyboard >> I bet thy are going to try and scare me... .good luck to them... lol.
thankfully people I know don't scare me... so yeah...

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: The Mysterious Ticking Noise
* Reading: Nothing
* Watching: Potter Puppet Pals
* Playing: Nothing
* Eating: Nada
* Drinking: Water

OK well... I just got back from like... our fifth soccer game and we lost 10 nothing for the second time >> we have lost every game but oh well >> I still made a REALLY great save this game!
This one girl got the ball and took off with it, I was behind but I caught up and I slid RIGHT INFRONT OF HER!! it was like... the best thing EVER! ok! lol
other then that.... I am a failure in school >> I have a C in science T_T I've never had a C before! I'm kind of freaking out... like... what if my parents see!?!? I got a C on the first test and an F on this last test! It's not my fault necessarily... he doesn't give us enough time to study! ARG!!
ok ok... on the other hand... There is this guy I like ^^ annnnnd.... he's really cute and he's on the boys JV soccer team and yeah... lol... *blush* my friends are calling all the guys they like but nuts, so like... one of my friend's crushes is peanut, another is walnut, another is pecan, and mine is almond >< roflmao
it's really quite entertaining... the only problem is.... I only have one class with him and I only ever see him then and sometimes at lunch... but then him and his friend think we're stalking them >> soooo yeah...
well, ttfn!

* Mood: Shame
* Listening to: N/A
* Reading: Nothing
* Watching: Avatar
* Playing: Nothing
* Eating: Pasta and Fish
* Drinking: Water

AND! now we are in the present! First off... I never mentioned my schedule or my current grades!! here they is!
1* + Science = B
2* + Calligraphy = A
3* + French = A
4* + Honors English = A
5* + Formal Geometry = B
6* + Physical Education (AKA P.E.)= A

WOO! lol >< I am still holding my own in Pre I.B.! lol.
well......... yeah.... OH OH OH!!!
My soccer team has lost every single freaking game so far and we only have two games left, I don't think the guy I like even knows I'm alive, science is KILLING me, I am too lazy to do half the home work, I cannot take tests, non of my friends are even on freaking line, I have no classes with any of my friends, and I am absolutely losing my mind!!!!! omg -.- on the other hand :D- I started RPing again, my artistic skills are improving, I don't listen to that much depressing music any more, I have almost completed my dream avi on gaia, my BFFITEW (bff in the entire world [kera]) freaks all my friends at my school out (roflmao), I am finally almost close to being half way finished with my Boulevard of Broken Dreams music vid, my grades or OK, I am making new friends, I am in three clubs so far, I think I might have a pretty good chance at getting on the swim team, I am getting a cell phone soon, I found this AWESOME new website (take180.com), I am officially 61 vids away from having watched 3,000 vids on youtube (beat THAT paula, lol, jk jk), I found a ton of awesome T-Shirts on another one website (snorgtees.com), and I've gotten a lot better at soccer! lets see.... well there seem to be more good things than bad so I guess I am happy! Well.... I have nothing else to say right now soooo.... ttl!
Love ~ Star